Post Mother's Day

This mother's day was a bit different for me . It was a beautiful day , weather wise , and my husband and son were really sweet to me.

However, I was a bit solemn . I haven't spent Mother's day with my mom in many years. Sometimes it is not enough to send a card , an email or text .

Sometimes you really just want to be there reflecting in her spirit. I missed that immensely. Over the past few weeks a number of family and friends have lost their mothers, fathers, and siblings. I feel very blessed to have many members of my extended family alive and well, but death was so close to me, I couldn't help but think about if my mom wasn't here . And I COULD NOT do it . Sheer mental block . I don't even know what that world would look like or feel like ... and I never want to know .

My mom and I talk almost everyday , about everything. We don't always see eye to eye and thats ok . But she has taught me, through her actions , what a good mother is. And it is nice to have that example set for me. In all my decisions that I make as a mom , I consider what my mom would do and it has guided me right every time.

This is dedicated to my mom: one of my favorite intros to a song ever !